how come my heart aches so much....just feel so down to the bottom...why cant i just think positive...depressing...sometimes it really make me wonder why we put so much effort in some things,end up not being appreciated...am i the only fool who tries to do stupid things....sometimes it sounds just so easy to forget certain stuff....but i am too emo to let it go....will effort really pay off?i spend almost all my life studying and doin stuff i like with no restriction...now i am just trapped in my own freedom....time heal wounds...but when the scar will be gone.....where is my strength and havoc thinking...i think i have lost myself...maybe i am just too tired...i am down....lazy to pick myself up...or even i have lost the strength just to pick up the pieces....music flowing through my head just to numb myself....but heart continues to bleed...maybe i have lost to the one and only thing in the world...just like a fren say"it is not the end of the world"....but is there a place for me in the world at first?so many questions unknown to me....so many problems ahead of me...can i withstand this blow???either i break it or make....maybe it is really up to me alone to decide.....priority maybe could help me understand wats the best for me ba...maybe being in school could help me to do more work rather then me staying at home thinking so much...Let God direct me towards the path where i belong....